The Big Bang Theory; Light, Dark & A Side of Rainbow.

BAM!

Sentience struck you & me. Things have never been more black & white.

You & I seem but the result of billions of years of gradual building of a simpler time into a more complex meaning of those time's. Witnessing more & more of the possibilities of the reality around us A never ending spiral upwards into infinite possibilities & downwards into rock bottom nothing. Nothing less then shattered pieces of what used to be, what we

collectively where. I find this moment in our history pleasantly welcoming a dawn of some new age. Its as if we have been tittering on the edge of war & chaos, Now we are speedily heading towards a land of plenty 'O Abundance. I feel as if we live in a Very young universe who's been occasionally met by some meaner, bigger &older universes. Claiming they knew more then we, yet truth be told there lack was just a reflection of ours.Our inability to help oneself as a collective; the real power accomplished like a vampire draining the life from a weaker life form briefly sustaining them simply because the individual couldn't find it in themselves what has existed the whole time, the ability to sustain and share. Instead like the vampire they hold

back real progression for a selfish eternity merely focusing on there gain '7 ignoring the lose caused by their actions. Yet these times have us saying no more to the vampire envision an end to all the bloodshed for short term profits.

I know from experience this life forced me into the well of vampires, Constantly depending on others to do things for me; it was designed this way Our Evolution made it so. A separation of gender & roles, One of the infinite possibilities of probability for a constructible life. A separation that forces you to learn from & rely on others. I feel though that our intellect has reached a point where one doesn't have to drain another to continue growing. Our collective growth has reached a point where we realize or natural imprint we have on one another. Consciously able to manage or energy consumption moving towards a brighter future as we compress ideas together manifesting a easier & easier reality. This change or shift i inevitable at this point & no one man or woman can stop it. It would take millions maybe even billions to move against the current opposing direction of where the collective wants to go; so good luck with that if you choose to be on the losing side. The side that wants it all for oneself & not for the rest.

It's been an upward struggle though many opposing ideas. I may preach a new age all I want but the truth is that I have had to climb a ladder full of traps thrones & punishment to see the world the way I see it today. Feeling change in the air yet when I speak it I'm constantly met with distain, ignorance, disbelief & repressive thoughts as if to dream of better days was something I should fear and stay away from. You don't have to look far to see how the vampires have drained many before I, speaking for better days. The likes of John. F. Kennedy , John Lennon & Martin luther king. Their struggle undeniable, yet in their wake a fear to stand up & aline yourself with there legacy is equivalent to unheard of wish washing Ho HA. Still I push forward as they did, not afraid of the recourse & punishment for my intentions to good onto others. it bothers me this malcontent ignorance many seem to have towards a progressive social stance. The belief that things are not heading towards a drastic change in world affairs is the struggle at hand. We are our own road block standing before one another racing towards the top of a short ladder, lacking the understanding that this ladder well always be short if we are fighting on it. The reality is when we all take a place on the ladder a step above or below the rest your still equal. You can then start passing new pieces up to the top & begin making it taller reaching higher then ever thought before. The metaphor is us, we are the thorns in one another sides, we are the traps catching one another from moving forward. If you can not see this then you are the one in need of self reflection, you are the one who is denying the self from true potential.

To me the big bang theory is an orgy of color & composition. It doesnt mater how or when exactly this began only that it is here now in the present day, still occurring. Things truly are black and white with a side of rainbow; the prime colors mixed Red, Yellow, Blue. From such you get a composition of everything that exists in a basic form of light. I imagine the dawn of time as one with 5 kingdoms. A kingdom on the left built of white light, 3 kingdoms in the middle Red, Blue & Yellow light, Finally the kingdom on the right built of black light. Since they where all of the same matter; light they saw one another as equals. They made deals with one another which began to mix their singularities into diversities; Just as we do today. Over a long period of time the 5 kingdoms could no longer see their singularities & began to fight amongst each other. Waging war and pointing lame on the other kingdoms for what they viewed as a short falling of their culture & heritage. Before long all the kingdoms where left in ruin, the children of the light left to clean up their parents wasteful mismanagement & misunderstanding of the other kingdoms. Some of the fallen choose to rebuild the 5 kingdoms a new, separating each other once again their story destined to repeat itself. However a few of the fallen indifferent to all the mixing that occurred rebuilt a 6th kingdom Distant from the 5 other kingdoms; this kingdom holding true to all the colors & shades of the light began their golden age together learning from one another instead of fighting one another. Their prosperity fruited in deep roots, they choose to learn from the lessons of the past & move with the change instead of the likes of their other brothers & sisters of the light who went against the changes & reverted back to the ways of the past.

We too are at this pivotal point of our story of the big bang, our giant orgy of beasts plants & elements, Con caving towards the end of the cycle. Your choice fully accepted, your place always respected in your universe, A spark of freewill granted to all sentient beings as has been since the dawning of time & space. Yet I warn all of those who choose to continue to be ignorant, choose to beat a brother down, choose Hate over Love, Fear over Hope, War over Peace. your days are coming to an end on my home front; on this planet we call Earth. The tides have changed & our collective well not have anymore to do with your nonsense. So continue making mistakes just as I do, but learn from them in a respectful, loving, Peaceful & hopeful manner Or find yourself starting over exiled from our land until you've learnt to accept all colors & compositions as equals, inspirations to your existence. For even apart we are together; still one.

Know there is no force but yourself out to get you, these days are full of inspiration and helpful bliss, be enjoy.

Peace, Love & Light.

Sincerely,

...A FREE MASON...

Simplification 2 Redefine; The Universe

Feeling A lot like Show and Tell; Today.

My Agenda; let's Awake tomorrow knowing we are going to be better off then today.

I like to take words apart & rethink them in my own way, usually its simply done by sounding out the word & finding smaller words within then rebuilding what that words means to me.

Take for example The Universe.

Wiki defines it as;

The Universe comprises everything that physically exists, the entirety of space and time, all forms of matter and energy, and the physical laws and constants that govern them. However, the termUniverse may be used in slightly different contextual senses, denoting such concepts as the cosmos, the world, or Nature

Where as I would break it up by sounding it out; U-n-I-Verse (You & I Verse). The Universe is simply a place for You & I to Verse.

This can mean a lot of things & from life experience it clearly does. I tend to find myself between a lot of U's Creating some form of existence be it War, Love or Peace WE collectively are creating something new or changing something old every moment.

I read this article that was sent to me via Email through a site called www.Evolver.net Its a wonderful place where like minded individuals gather too share their thoughts & experiences to help one another grow/evolve.

The article is on scientific proof of gods existence. It struck me as gold simply because I want to prove to people they matter What they do & think means the world to me.

http://www.amitgoswami.org/scientific-proof-existence-god/

A strong affirmation to what I believe, That conscience is the root of all existence. My "awaking" if I can be so bold as to call it came from the questioning of the quantum physical level. The first being filed in high school when I heard scientist couldn't figure out the answer as to why @ the atomic level on the double split experiment; you would have the electrons (which we define as matter) acting as though it was a wave (Something matter shouldn't be able to do). Once we looked closer & observed this questionable act the electrons began to act as matter again. This file stored deep in the back of my mind was reopened A year ago when I watched the movie "What the Bleep do we know".

You can see Exactly what Im talking about starting 3:00 minuets in This Video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQe0oiaBssg&feature=related

Then we have Intentions given to crystalized water;

http://www.life-enthusiast.com/twilight/research_emoto.htm

Blows my Mind or rather I can say allows me to reflect & focus on my thoughts/actions towards others in a more intense & careful manner.

Again interesting to watch another Video From "What the Bleep..." Skip Directly to 4:30 Minutes To see the water Experiment footage @ this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hi_UFSShQHU

This really does make you wonder since our basic make up is comprised mostly of water. Concluding our thoughts are more powerful then most seem to relies & to think something is to create that action. Its equivalent to physically do onto another with out doing anything; To Myself it's truth it's our thoughts that create/define this world we've chosen to live in. We are all our own Universe existing in the multiverse redefining what it means to be alive to one another so that in return they can one day redefine what it is for us. All of us owning a never ending universe in which we are playing this game of reality; for ourselves in return for one another. Truly bringing meaning to 'Do onto others as you would have them do onto you'. Which makes me want to simplify another word for you to reflect on; Careful: Simply put Full of care; Care for all things in our multiverse. A word you should carry in your thoughts.

To be honest I used to find it hard to talk to people about life's deep meaning; In fact it's still hard because everyone has there own version; There own universe to attend too. Yet This Prophet knows A shift is happening every moment & I plan to ride these waves until the end of time. Especially knowing Great things are to come in our near future & Thats something I wouldn't Miss for anything. Its as If we have been dreaming a really bad dream collectively one full of forgetfulness, War, Hate & Fear; Now moving forward I can see a light coming straight towards our existence, something we are all ready to embrace; This something is each other for I too have a dream which is of Remembrance, Peace, love & harmony. Shortly we well given to this new global energy this dream simply because its our deepest & purest desire; its our collective evolution at stake & If you find yourself indifferent now, know you always have a choice one of remembering or forgetting. So Make your Choice as I've made mine, To sit a King amongst my fellow Kings & Queens; Brothers and sisters in arms together we stand with Courage, Wisdom & Power @hand or make no choice and see what happens, You can even choose to continue to fight these changes but know your fear hate & War are about to be stomped out.

Peace, Love, Light & A Good Night.

Sincerely,

...A FREE MASON...

Breathing A Dragons Breath.

I recently picked up a pack of smokes after a few months retired from the "Dangerous habit". I had on occasion smoked with friends & strangers to ease myself into there world. I found it released a lot of notion that what they where doing was harming me, my view was if I smoke with them they would open up there hearts more easily to me. It worked especially with strangers, the conversation would be smooth & burn along easily just like A Dragons Breath. I highly enjoyed this especially when I was by myself & the judgment was reserved to the sad eyes I had decided to relate & talk too. It was only recently I had pushed my self to wanting more then that offered, wanting my own personnel pack. I decided no less then a week ago to go out & purchase my own pack. Looking back it was indifferently the only way I saw to become truly disassociated from my mothers reign & control I felt she had on me. An act of rebellion to prove to myself & to show to her I was my own person. A way to feel like my own person unable to see a million & one other ways to do this; having your own personal identity, Mostly smoking that dry harshness just feels so good to me. Maybe it's the nicotine or the tobacco making that short high which calms you.

There is no doubt that a steady flow of this burn turns your system black. An Act in which you willingly begin to turn on your body an acceptance to the gentle side of deaths hand. In a reflective & metaphoric sense turning my heart black was a way for me to see what I was doing to others & how I felt others had treated my feelings. I sought refugee in the deep inhalation of darkness because thats how I felt. My intentions where to go into the dark, quickly forgotten making it Ok for me to forget about my body. For me to forget who I want to be; a person who sees many days of abundance ahead. Instead I became greedy & consumed to the point where the lust of the smoke faded. Where a drag had become just that; a drag. At least this time I learnt my lesson within the pack & no more then that, I came out stronger then before. The small sacrifice of my body a small part of my heart to heal again. My will unshaken I push forward with my thoughts Bringing them forth to an audience. The question really is why & what do you smoke for?

I found I truly did it because of rejection, a way to hurt the ones who unintentionally hurt me a way to reclaim my person from persons who couldn't see me as my own. Finding solitude briefly in a dying black hearted dragon, still I know I'll go to the sad eyes of my friends & strangers who still drink there poisons in solitude. My helping hand coming from brief words of none judgmental wisdom as I too drink from their chalice. Showing relation & proving to myself where the guilt lies, with in each & everyone of us. Our past actions & our present decisions alone can feel so heavy. Yet let it be known That I stand with out judging eye's & only the need to feel apart of your world if but a brief moment. Building a bridge between your world and mine. Maybe the next stranger who enters your world could be me filling your guilt with grace. You & me finding Peace in the last burning trees.

Peace, Love & Light.

Sincerely,

...A FREE MASON...

Alien Nation

I wrote this to speak out my stress and vent on how it could be possible that by treating others as unworthy of your attention & disproving there actions as a wrong or lesser path creates separation & alienation from our collective incentives to fit in. @ an early age we all strive to be alive yet this lust seems to fade as a wall of guilt is built inside you, constantly being told what you can & cannot do. We then create a myth of some invading force when in reality it's only been each other bullying one another to get more attention in the means to fit in with one another. I see the Alien Gray's being a form of our own collective subconscious expressing its self; examining the stranger to find out if there's anything inside the heart & abduction for reproduction being just a reminder of are own collective fear of no more future for our children. You can call it a warning for all those who remain indifferent to their thoughts & actions.

WELCOME TOO

~ALIEN NATION~

I found I had alienated myself from others at an early age, The discovery of Nintendo The separation of my Mother & Father, a constant replacement of my self from institution to institution lead to a need too continue reinvent myself; which in this day & age lead to the construction of a rather large wall & many specific similarities needed to let people in. I had few friends at times usually 3 good ones. A best friend was generally found in the glowing T.V & Boxy consuls of yesteryear. I enjoyed escaping to far off places new planets to Rome. I loved Role playing, strategy & puzzle games as they felt right @ home safe to me unlike the outside world who seemed a harsh mistress. My favorite Color to wear in high school was gray, it made me blend in with the crowd; some kids I had classes with didn't even know I existed & I enjoyed it. This is why I feel I can identify with the Gray's. The world was crazy & keeping a safe distance from it seemed like a winning plan. I had become the alien to my own world; A ghost with a hidden identity & closed heart creating a safe separation...

I believe I did this to protect me because everyone early in my life seemed so negative & I didn't know where it was coming from, that's not to say I didn't have positive influences. They just seemed so short lived & far between. It was as if this planet had been dealt a hand nine parts suck & one part alright most people believing that one part alright was them. Living as a middle class citizen we seem punished by guilt & greed looking to countries in poverty only making it seem like anything we do we should be guilty for doing; looking to the rich I could only question why they could have so much & can care so little.

My parents split greatly effected my ability to understand & fit in with others. My father figure wasn't around & when he was the attention I got was very unwanted; like a bully it was focused on survival, very direct & pushy. He never seemed to listen to what I was saying & I felt somehow Id offended him. Yet in reality he just wanted a hug because he had hurt feelings. though as I was getting mine hurt with out the guidance to be shown it was perfectly normal to feel the way I felt. A child doesn't know what's really going on its all guess work that's why we ask why... This caused me to become timid none the less seek out ways to impress my father so he could see me as a real man; As my own surviving adult. He was Like the wind pushing me until I could push myself, his love had to be earned. My mothers attention was different hers came from a place of over care & abundance; Her love freely given to me, bombarded with don't & dew's, who & what to hang out. Hugs given, when In her Eyes I did right & things taken when I did her Wrong. Loving me with out realizing she was building all her own fear's spite & hate up inside me. As If I should feel guilty to leave her as if any of my own choices would never be good ones unless first approved & motherly stamped. She was asking never to leave her indirectly, She was like the earth allowing me to step around as I grew; her pain was my pain, her joy my joy. As a child I couldn't tell where my problems came from, now as an adult it seems clear that their losses where passed on to me & lay dormant inside until I was ready to dig them out. Their separation had become my alienation & identity. This isn't to say they where bad people that's the furthest from the truth as their problems where again a reaction to a previous action. Luckily for me I had a younger brother come 3 years after I was born. Hes Love was a push of exploration & mischief, He wanted to know what I thought & listened too the thoughts I had with wonder. This created a drive to protect, Someone my intentions helped create, Someone who grew beside me with the help of my guidance. With these 3 influences I learn t my own version of what Wisdom, Courage & Power can be. They Brought balance to my life & a place to see what I had become, who I had become, Where I wanted to go. They also tore my life asunder when I could no longer find ways to relate, they are my family they are my identify.

As the years marched forward I began to move about with my mom, back to Edmonton after 3 year's in spruce grove. My dad still in west Edmonton & my mom wanting to keep a safe distance from the pain of their divorce we settled in on the north side. I had only worked 1 job prior to moving, working at a green house in Spruce Groove which I had found very calming; I only began work @ 18yrs old; many considered me lazy which only caused me to alienate from their disapproval. Through the years & growing with my family I was able to come of age, however I began to seek new attention out. It wasn't until my 18th birthday that I Had my first real kiss & took my first drink; the blurry/floating feeling seemed to make my worry's & self conscious ways disappear. I only really drank with the friends I had from high school & that didn't last long they faded away into these fast paced lives we live, The Blurry/floating feelings began to turn to despair as I witnessed more lose & separation. I had to skip to my own beat; Keep marching forward in hopes of healing the never ending wounds that the world seemed to carelessly inflict onto itself. After my 19th Birthday I began to trade the Blurry lows for an inhalation of some dopey highs, This allowed me to relax & rekindle with a group who enjoyed the lighter side of life, It stirred up a lot of thought in my head unlike the alcohol which stirred up a lot of lust in my smaller head. Pot wasn't escapism more so it was exploring realms in which some held no interest. I feel communicate with them about these quests & explorations is equivalent to running into a wall most believing that what I was doing to be wrong & supportive of what's wrong in the world, They alienate you before they even know you or give you a chance. Simply because they want nothing to do with what's deemed wrong, the conundrum of this reality is by separation you do them wrong. we truly are all one and in this together.

After moving too the north side I found work in retail. The young crowd was pleasing & welcoming compared to the older disproving one. However the work seemed to tare me & others up inside out regardless of age. I noticed a separation between customer & sales; Teacher & student being told the customer/Teacher was always right creating a larger wall for the have & have not; more alienation amongst the people, more separation from one another in our ability to communicate with out breaking down. Epically inside me. I felt torn from group too group never settling in, never staying with a single best friend for longer then a few years, feeling not after long in my heart I would just be gone again. That's just how it was for me. Maybe its different for you but I never really got chances to connect for a long period of time, It made everything seem disposable, It made me feel like the alien living outside a collective reality waiting for the day to be invited in by someone, anyone. Yet I realized even now the ones who fit in somewhere are better yet waiting for the day they to get welcomed by a larger collective wholeness.

On the 13 of Aug 2005 I had a change of pace this was just after I had Began work at retail so it was very welcoming to go and relax. My mom wanted to bring me somewhere for graduating, So I choose Jamaica one dope place to relax. I saw a different way of life & how deep our western ways cut into theirs. Realizing even across the ocean our effects could be felt our collective greed caused a strangle hold on there ability to micro manage themselves. They seemed weak under our larger macro management which forced them into a resort island slowly siphoning away there culture making it our own prevailing ideas on who & what they should be, What they should mean to us instead of what they had meant to themselves before we arrived. I felt very alienated when I was there, being viewed as some rich white man. They tried to shove trinkets down my empty pockets unknown to them I came from a family of little filled with many have knot's. Yet in there wake my little seemed like a lot the idea that these people where different & less then me began to fade as there smiles reached into my heart our separation only seemed as thick as water & everyone knows water is malleable. I took these principles back with me & began to tend to my heart making my own path to live instead of depending on solely on others. On arriving back to Edmonton I shopped for my own cloths began to choose what I wanted to listen to & caught my first real girlfriend in this collective ocean of noise. My heart was now open to the possibility that I was good enough for others to have me & the alienation, the separation from the others began to fade away slowly.

I gave up drinking entirely. Instead I began to smoke Cigarettes. They allowed me to yet again make contact with unknown people & at the same time be able to feel welcomed. This hurt my parents though too see me begin to slowly kill myself it's as if I was stripping there future away yet in reality I was choosing to no longer be apart of what they wanted for me. I had decided that their life wasn't the one I would have & to die at 40 was a good life one of adventure and fast paced living holding no fear; no regrets for my own actions. I know now that this was an act of rebellion; A way for me to show them how much I wanted them to see me for my own person, yet in that process I was able to see them & there losses that lay dormant inside me clearer then ever. Since then I have been on the move, the pace of life on a speedy highway compared to the past reflections of yesteryear. Its almost been 5 years since my 18th birthday & I feel as if I've done more living in the last 5 then I did in the previous 15. I climbed a work ladder & even became supervisor trainer, treasure, assignment manger no prior experience all within 2 years. I did all these responsibility & I did them VERY well. I've loved & lost, Broke my heart & healed my heart. I've found a soul mate & built an unbreakable relationship that runs so deep within my vain; I know even in death my memory would last forever within all the hearts I have touched in this life. I've broken my head open with Psychedelics & found out the reasons why I am who I am. A reason of a collection of what was & what is shared by you & me dictating who & what I can be. I found a reason to stay & you are that reason each & every person place or thing in our collective creation. It's what we do to get attention; what we do to love or hate that attracts me to this alien nation so firmly. For now I KNOW that it’s all for us because of us. I know it was built in my mind this whole time an idea that you & I are so different that idea is only skin deep as we all share the same collective fate. We All Live for each other because of each other, This is my desperation my means to create something beautiful, to express my self as an artist.

I now have an understanding of what unconditional love truly is because of everyone's help & it feels like believing/faith, knowing everyone is experiencing every place person & thing in this moment. It's right now; Us together in this shared moment that is what holds reality together, Me, You & Them Its the simplest & largest trinity out there. The most important things in life are your family, friends & things; brothers & sisters I can say that with no doubt, no question in my minds eye. Together WE are all just a larger family of Brothers, Sisters & things .This Idea is what I share freely because I know my creation was given to me unconditionally; just the conditions in which I received my objectivity were confusing & caused misunderstanding's in one another. Its something we all go to war for, all I suggest is you trade your sword for a word too stop the bickering & fighting because our differences really are our similarity's. Now I stand by all of you a FREE man with FREE thoughts to share, I've unchained my mind from the idea that people don't want me & I give out myself to anyone who needs me I Become my own open Source; my own self perpetual free energy machine.

You can Compare this to the slow pull of a self created belief that someones out to get you; such a negative reality. I compare it to the speed of time when I was alone escaping my reality believing something was out to get me, Time ticked by so slow waiting for death to come. I look to how quick it passes now for me as I share with people as I get my point across, The invisible walls begin to fade & we start too see each other as one in the same struggle. No longer do I feel the pull of time as I stand on it Building my new reality working with life believing no one but myself is really out to get me. To me this makes the contrast/difference in time an understanding in vibrations. When it seems slowed to a pulp you’re generally waiting for a future that isn't here & for time to speed by your feeling well endowed in the moment building a future your looking towards rather then running from. The moment is found when you no longer feel alienated from the presence of reality, when you’re relating instead of debating. I ask you now in these new moments what have you decided to become where do you put your Courage, Wisdom & Power? I write this to ask all of you to open your hearts as I have opened mine. For all our brothers, sisters & things we love; standing together on our collective one true mother: EARTH & just like the children play in the parks at school: Red Rover, Red Rover we call one another over until all is said & done again the two shall become one. 4Ever2gether bound by unconditional Wisdom to find peace, Courage to keep loving & Light to bring about Power.

Peace, Love & light.

Sincerely,
...A FREE MASON...

~Look up and down your family tree I know you'll be a part of me.~